The best life possible


“Don’t let what you can’t do interfere with what you can do.”

~ John Wooden

Living with chronic illness is difficult, and yet there are psychological techniques to make it possible to thrive even when ill

by Joseph Trunzo edited by O Society November 2, 2019

Before Donna is diagnosed, she thinks of herself as a musician, a busy professional, a volunteer, a mother, a grandmother. After she is diagnosed with Parkinson disease at age 58, she thinks of herself as a patient.

Hence, the time she once spent engaged, giving her life meaning, is now eaten up by doctor’s appointments, diagnostic tests, and constant monitoring of her symptoms, her energy, her reactions to medication. Her sense of loss is profound and undeniable.

Unfortunately, Donna’s experience is all too common. Heart disease, arthritis, multiple sclerosis, diabetes, depression, cancer, asthma, Crohn’s disease, cystic fibrosis, autoimmune disorders, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, Lyme disease: the list goes on. Most people know someone close to them who is suffering from one of these debilitating chronic conditions, if not struggling with a diagnosis themselves. Globally, three in five deaths are attributed to one of four major diseases – cardiovascular disease, chronic lung conditions, cancer, or diabetes.

Moreover, approximately a third of adults suffer from multiple chronic conditions, wreaking untold havoc on healthcare systems and economies across the globe. In developed countries, it might be closer to three in four older adults who suffer from multiple conditions. The proportion of patients with four or more diseases is expected to double between 2015 and 2035 in the UK alone. These statistics don’t account for chronic illnesses in children, which are on the rise. In sum, this means billions of people are at best not functioning at their highest level, and at worst severely debilitated, live limited lives, and require chronic medical care.


The bigger questions of how to prevent these illnesses or resolve this global health crisis are beyond me. I am not an epidemiologist, public health expert, economist or even a physician. However, as a clinical psychologist, I see many people trying to navigate the daily vagaries of chronic afflictions. I’ve worked with people who have been diagnosed with various forms of cancer, Parkinson, cystic fibrosis, Lyme disease, obesity, all manner of cardiovascular diseases, multiple sclerosis, brain injuries, paralysis and many other illnesses.

Naturally, I also see people on a regular basis who are dealing with chronic mental health issues, such as depression, anxiety, trauma, bipolar disorder, and so forth. The causes of these conditions are varied and multifaceted. A common thread underlying all is in the absence of a cure, people generally still want to live the best life one possibly can regardless of an affliction or disability. While each person and each condition presents its own set of challenges, some unifying principles help people who are suffering from chronic illnesses to live better, more meaningful lives.

In my practice, we approach these issues from a therapeutic perspective known as acceptance and commitment therapy, or ACT (said as the word, not the acronym). I encourage anyone and everyone dealing with similar issues to at least become familiar with this approach, as it is helpful to my patients and countless others.

Generally, living as rich and meaningful a life as possible when you are struggling with a chronic illness requires a great deal of psychological flexibility. With chronic illness, rigidity in your thinking and behaviour is the greatest barrier to living well with your illness. The only thing you can count on is you never really know what your day is going to be like, and things always are changing.

How am I going to feel today? This morning? Later this afternoon? What will I be able to do? How much rest will I need? How clear will my head be? How much pain will I have to endure at any given moment of the day? How bad will the medication side-effects be?

Planning – for anything – can be an excruciatingly difficult task and, since we are typically creatures of routine, we hang on to those routines as much as we can. This is generally a good thing – we like structure and predictability, but chronic illnesses can make this quite challenging, and sometimes impossible.

Psychological flexibility is a realization to be present with what is happening right now, free of judgment, and to respond in a way to move us forward rather than get stuck in the emotions or feelings of the moment – anger, frustration, sadness, pain, and so forth.

While becoming more psychologically flexible might seem like a daunting, if not impossible task, it is not a talent available only to a select few. Rather, it is a skill, and any skill can be learned by just about anyone with enough time and effort. Below are some approaches we use to help increase our psychological flexibility and help live a more meaningful life, especially if we have chronic illness.

These are the same things I try to help clients such as Donna do in our work together, and I like to think these things are useful to navigate through the darkness of chronic illness. If this sounds like something you may need or want or can use, further reading on ACT and maybe even working with a professional therapist could just help you live the best life you possibly can lead.


Be the thinker, not the thought

This phrase refers to how we handle our internal voice, the constantly running commentary we experience all day, every day, and never can seem to silence. For whatever reason, inner voice can be very critical, judgmental or even downright cruel. We also tend to listen to it way too much. Since human beings are rather egocentric, if our mind tells us something, we tend to automatically believe it to be true. This contributes greatly to our perception (and misperception) of reality, and drives our emotional reactions and behaviours, often in unhelpful directions.

For example, if I’m dealing with a chronic illness, I might be plagued by thoughts of being burdensome to my family or loved ones. In Donna’s case, she’s troubled by her limited capacity to do the things she used to enjoy, the things that gave her life meaning. Be the thinker, not the thought simply means to increase awareness of the thoughts I am having, to be more observant of my own thought processes, to put some distance between the thought and reality, and then make some better decisions about whether or not to engage with these thoughts.


But how does one do this?

I am not suggesting we try to eliminate or control any of our thoughts; this would be a futile endeavour. Thoughts will arise in our minds, and there they are – trying not to think something actually requires one to think it, so it is simply not possible to do. Instead, notice the thought, then try to react in a better way so I can separate myself from it. It’s one thing to think “I am a burden,” yet an entirely different thing to notice myself having the thought “I am a burden.”

This difference might seem only semantic, but it isn’t. If I notice, then I can decide how to respond. If the thought is helpful to me at the time, then run with it. For example, if I think it is time for  medication or my family loves me and takes good care of me, then of course I engage with these thoughts.


However, if I have thoughts about being a burden, and notice and decide it isn’t particularly helpful, then I can figure out how much attention and energy I want to give this thought. Maybe simply notice it and shift my focus to something more useful is the best course…

It’s important to note that I’m not encouraging you to argue with a thought, or convince yourself of its truth or otherwise, or in any way try to alter it. In this context, truth matters much less than function, so if the thought is of little use in moving you forward, no matter how true or false, it is probably best to shift your focus away. Donna’s recurrent thought – Everything I loved to do has been taken from me – was of no functional use. Similarly, it’s hard to come up with a good use for the thought that you’re a burden. So, notice the thought, decide it’s not useful, let it go, and move forward.


Allow myself to feel what I’m feeling, move through it, and turn my attention to more meaningful pursuits

Be open to acceptance: this is perhaps the most difficult and misunderstood concept of ACT. For many, especially those of us dealing with a chronic illness, when we hear the term ‘acceptance,’ we get upset. We liken it to being told to suck it up, to just deal with it, or to stop complaining. In many contexts, this might indeed be the message sent with this word, but this is not the case from an ACT perspective. Sucking it up and not complaining is often the opposite of acceptance. If I do this at the request of ‘well-wishers,’ then perhaps I am denying the experience, stifling natural reactions, and probably avoiding reality, which may lead to resenting these same well-wishers.

The nature of chronic illness is ongoing, and in many cases, degenerative or permanent. Recognising when I have little to no control over something can help to stop the struggle against it. Validating – not minimising or negating – an experience can help one to honestly assess one’s condition, our options, and my choices.

Allowing ourself to feel what we’re feeling anyway can help to move through it, and turn our actions and attention to more meaningful pursuits. For example, research on individuals with spinal cord injury suggests folks who reach a state of acceptance about a condition end up adapting better, higher functioning, and feeling more positive about their lives.

This is not to say if someone with such an injury had an opportunity to be able to walk again, this person should not pursue it. It is to say spending all of one’s time and energy trying not to feel a certain way or trying to change a currently unchangeable situation is a fantastically inefficient and ineffective way to move through life.

There is a time and place to fight your illness, but it is not 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Dropping the moment-to-moment struggle, and accepting where I am and what I can do in this moment can be powerfully transformative. It frees up energy and time to engage with family, friends, hobbies, leisure activities, rest, and so forth.


Muhammad Ali

Donna is a musician and a gifted guitar player. However, her Parkinson makes it so she is no longer able to play with the same level of skill. At times, she hardly can play at all. As you can imagine, this is devastating to her. For a period of time, playing guitar is fraught with distress, anger, anxiety, and frustration. Ultimately, her choice is to avoid these difficult feelings by never playing again, or to accept her current limitations and engage in an activity she loves to the best of her current ability. She has to sit with the pain of losing some of her skills in order to experience the joy of playing at all.

Once she lets go of her expectations, stops avoiding and trying to control difficult emotions by accepting where she is, Donna finds the joy in playing again. She is able to grow differently as a musician because the illness forces her to think about playing things in new ways. New methods. New approaches. This does not mean it is not sometimes painful for her to remember what she used to be able to do; however, in the act of not allowing pain to dictate her decisions is where she finds acceptance. This is critical to psychological flexibility and leading a meaningful life.

Stay present: you probably hear a lot about being mindful, meditating, staying focused on the now, not getting stuck in the past or caught up in the future. This is all good and wise, but what does it actually mean? What if your present is painful and difficult, why would you want to stay there? Staying present is another tricky concept.

From an ACT perspective, it means paying close attention only to what’s happening in this very moment, in your body, in your mind, and all around you. This is a hard thing to do: it does not come naturally because our minds don’t easily allow it. We look for the next thing that might hurt us, regret or relive the past, and worry about the future.


The problem is when you are not present, it compromises your ability to move through your current situation. A big part of noticing your thoughts, for example, is being present with the moment. Regrets about the past and worries about the future do nothing for your current situation. You need to deal with what’s right in front of you, be it pain, anger, resentment, guilt, joy, fear or love. Whatever it is, it is with you right here, right now. Your job is to try to be present with it, even dig into it, because when it comes to emotions and physical sensations, there is no way over, no way under, and no way around – there is only through. And you cannot move through something if you are not present to it. Not being present is often a form of avoidance, which tends to get us into more trouble than if we just allowed ourselves to feel what we’re feeling in the first place.

Take Donna as an example. When she’s having difficulty functioning, she might spin into worry about what she can’t do, what she’s missing out on, and what a bad day means for her future. On days like this, she might get caught up in the past or the future, but she has symptoms bothering her right now, in the present. Once she identifies these, names them and looks at them without judgment, she can try to turn her attention to the other things present too: The birds are chirping. She takes a deep breath. The breeze feels good on her skin. She puts on a record and enjoys the music. She hears something in it she probably wouldn’t notice when she is in high gear. This is a better way to spend a ‘bad’ day than ruminating, regretting, and worrying. There can be a lot of joy and pleasure in the present moment even on the worst days.


Being here-now, not there-then, is being present with your current self versus your past or future self

Be here now, not there then: no one wants to be sick but, when we are, we tend to think of what we were like when we were well, or how we hope to be at some point in the future. There’s nothing wrong with remembering or hoping, but when you allow past or future versions of yourself to skew your perception of your present – when you make decisions based on how you felt then versus how you feel now – it can lead to bad outcomes.

Perhaps you were an energetic, productive person before you became ill, but now you have a fraction of the energy you did then. If you make decisions about what you can do based on your former energy levels, you’ll set yourself up for major problems. You might be exhausted for the next four days or you might hurt yourself, rendering you completely unavailable for any other activity or for your family. Being here now, not there then, is like being present with your current self versus your past or future self. It doesn’t mean you’ll be this way forever, it just means this is where you are right now, so make decisions about your life based on that, not where you were or where you wish to be. Ultimately, this will allow for better decision making and increased functionality.

In Donna’s case, if she views her guitar-playing based only on what she used to be able to do or what she fears about how she will play in the future, this would increase the likelihood of frustration, harsh self-judgment and maybe lead to her not playing at all. However, if she stays present with her current self, she is more likely to stay engaged with this meaningful activity, enriching her day-to-day life.

Know what matters: there are few things that will clarify your priorities and values like a chronic illness. It turns your life upside down. The things you thought mattered – such as meeting work deadlines, getting promoted, making a good impression at the neighbourhood party – all of a sudden matter a whole lot less. Use this clarity to guide your decisions and your behaviour. If your illness has shown you that your family matters most, then every new decision should be geared towards moving you in the direction of that value. In Donna’s case, she rediscovered her love of music for itself, and saw how her mastery of an instrument was only one way to engage with something she valued deeply.

Earlier I spoke of letting go of thoughts that don’t matter or aren’t useful; knowing what matters is how you decide what’s useful to you. The good news is that, while you might have little control over what you think or how you feel, you have 100 per cent control over what matters to you. Is it your health? Stay fully engaged in your treatment. Go to your medical appointments. Get the sleep and rest you need. Say no to things that you know will be too much. Say yes to things that you can manage and that matter. Take an inventory of the major areas of your life – family, health, friends, leisure, spirituality, vocation – and decide what matters to you, and move towards it.

It’s important not to confuse values with goals. Goals are achievable and have an end point, whereas values are consistent guideposts in your decision-making process that are never truly attainable. It might be a goal for you to be able to attend an important family event, but being engaged with your family is the value behind the goal. Once you attend the event, it’s over, but you never stop caring about your family. Goals tend to be aligned with your values, but they are not the same thing. When you determine your values, this is where you want to pour your energy. Then you can use this information to guide all your decisions. Does the thought of being a burden help move you closer to what’s important and meaningful? No? Then let it go and move on. When it comes back, just notice it and let it go again. When you have a thought that is consistent with your values, then run with it.

Pain in the pursuit of valued actions is purposeful. Pain without purpose is suffering

Donna loved playing the guitar, but what she really loved was music. When she couldn’t play guitar as well as she liked, she found other ways to engage with music. It is critical to find the underlying value of any activity you love so, if that activity becomes too difficult for you, you can find other activities that keep you engaged in the value. If you love art, then make art. If you can’t make art, then look at art. Visit it, learn about it, engage with it in whatever way you can. Always evaluate your thinking in terms of how useful it is in moving towards your values. Fully engage and immerse yourself in it.


I should clarify what exactly I mean by engagement because you might misinterpret this as always feeling asif you need to be doing something. You don’t. You can (and probably should) engage in rest. Take a nap. Say “no” to things. Stop doing things if it gets to be too much. Give yourself permission to pursue your value of tending to your health and wellbeing. Good self-care is the foundation for everything else you do – nothing else happens if you don’t take care of you, so resting and taking time off is not only okay, it’s necessary.

This doesn’t make you lazy, it doesn’t make you useless, it doesn’t make you a burden. It makes you a whole thinking and feeling person who is doing what you need to do to take care of yourself. Embrace it. If your value is rest, then rest. If your values are more ‘action’ oriented, then do so in whatever way you can and that makes sense for you.

Recognise, however, our values will likely go hand in hand with our pain. Often, when pursuing values, we need to accept pain will come with it. Donna experiences this with her guitar-playing. She knows to pursue her value of playing music comes with pain and difficulty because it reminds her of what she no longer can do. She fully recognises this, yet also she knows, while it might be hard, it also matters, which can make the pain and difficulty just a little bit easier to carry.



This is the difference between pain and suffering. Pain in the pursuit of valued actions is purposeful. Pain without purpose is suffering. While there is certainly purposeless suffering in the world, and those with chronic illness know this better than most, not all pain has to be suffering. Connecting your pain to a value is critical in helping you lead a richer, more vital, more meaningful life.

Above all, take an action-oriented approach, one intentionally designed to increase psychological flexibility, to help us behave in ways to improve the meaning and quality of our lives. The doing, whatever I decide it is to be, is of paramount importance.

Chronic illness may rob one of abilities. You might feel like a shell of your former self. You might not be able to walk around the block anymore, or even to walk at all. Some days, maybe you can’t even get out of bed. Maybe you’ll never get out of bed again.

Your stamina might be gone. You might become incredibly fatigued by the simplest of tasks. Maybe you can’t think clearly, or you can’t be in a room with the lights on. Eating might be a challenge; enjoying food might be a thing of the past. You might be in pain – all the time.

With chronic illness, you can easily spend all day cataloguing what you can no longer do, but to what end? Does this move you towards your values? Maybe you can’t engage with your friends and family exactly the way you like; but if you can engage with them somehow, no matter how small, that is meaningful. Our lives are ultimately determined by our behaviours – by what we do – and any action, no matter how small it might be, moves one towards that which we value is better than doing nothing or shutting myself down because it’s no longer the way it was or how ideally I want it to be.


So maybe you can’t read to your grandchildren anymore. Can they read to you? In what way can you engage with them consistent with your values? While it might not be the ideal way, it is a way, and anything that moves me in the direction of what I value, no matter how seemingly small, is going to be better for me and those who love me. When we actively engage in value-driven behaviours, life is more meaningful, even if it is different than before.


You might not have a choice about your illness, but you do have choices about how to live with it

Eventually, Donna’s disease progressed to the point where she was no longer able to hold a guitar well enough to play it. Her illness took this away from her, but she realised that, while she loved playing guitar, her real love was the music. So she wrote. She listened. She fiddled with a keyboard because she found this easier to play. She went to concerts and continued to share her love for music with her friends and her family; she taught others the joy she found in it. She stayed engaged in whatever way she could, even though her ability to speak with her chosen musical voice was no longer present. What was her alternative path? A life with no music? She could have stopped playing the moment she felt compromised by her disease. She could have engaged with the anger, the anxiety, the frustration, the pain of losing her ability to play at a high level, but to what end? Would her life have been better?

Through her ability to be the thinker not the thought, to accept what she could not control and lean into difficult feelings, to be present in the moment and with her current version of self, to identify her values and move towards them, Donna ended up continuing and growing her love for music in a way that would not have been possible if she turned away due to the pain of it all. She made the seemingly unworkable work. Was it exactly how she would have liked it to be? No, but I think we can agree that the alternative was a darker path, leading to a bleaker life than necessary.

The statistics I cited at the beginning of this piece are staggering and terrifying. On this scale, it is easy to feel powerless against the wave of disease and illness seemingly sweeping humankind. But every global health problem has an individual circumstance, and this is where we reside and where we do the work we can do. Chronic illnesses are insidious. They can take over your life and the lives of everyone around you. They are seductive, trapping us in a vision of what we don’t have and what we don’t want.


You have every right to be angry, frustrated, and resentful. It’s justified. No one should tell you otherwise. You feel how you feel, but you don’t have to let those feelings – or your attempts to control them – dictate how you live. If you can become more psychologically flexible, if you can break free of the rigid emotional confines of chronic illness, you can fashion a better and more meaningful life for yourself and your loved ones.

You may not have a choice about your illness, but you do have choices about how to live with it. At any given moment, these choices either move in alignment with my values – the things which matter to me – or they don’t. Choose the former, as it leads toward a more meaningful life.

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